I’m >:( very angry! I always thought Guiding was a place where I could be me and be accepted…oh how wrong I was. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not putting all Guiders in this category, there are some of you who I think are fantastic people but the ones I’ve come across tonight go so far into narrow minded ignorance, discrimination and victimising that it is unbelievable.
As if it’s not hurtful enough that they think I’m unfit, a liability to myself and the girls, deceitful and completely unfathomable, they discuss all this amongst themselves and BEHIND my back. Not one of them, NOT ONE, had the decency to come to me and say they had a problem. They know I am brutally honest, they know what they see is what they get and they know that I would always come to the person I have a problem with so how come none of them could do the same to me?
I don’t tell them enough about how I’m doing…well excuse me but I didn’t think my personal life was a topic for public discussion. Would X like to tell us about her marital problems and Y tell us about her money worries…I don’t think so! So why then should I have to disclose every last detail about an EXTREMELY sensitive issue to people who are only going to judge me and condemn me before they have heard what I have to say.
Running out of steam now…more later Lousy with this throat thing 
Antibiotics today, really not happy so disgruntled Guiders are the last thing I want to be dealing with…
Damn the lot of them…I’m not sure I want to be involved in an organisation where the leaders are unable to follow one of the fundamental principles of equal opportunity for all. I’m currently in the process of finding myself another Guide unit, one where I will be taken as I am and not for some nutcase who is a danger to the kids.
Most of this has come about because I’m going to camp with a feeding tube in. As I pointed out to them I could have a feeding tube for a hundred and one different reasons. If I had cystic fybrosis or cancer and needed the extra nutrients would they be as quick to judge?!
Apparently the girls are too young to be made aware of what I’m going through. Come on they are 10-14 years of age if they don’t know what an ED is I’d be very surpised. I’m anorexic it’s not something shameful to be swept under the carpet. I don’t think it is the girls who have a problem its the adults who just don’t want to accept anything that is different.
Tags: anorexia, feeding tube, Guiding, bitching, anger
