For those who follow me and wonder where I’ve gone I’m currently detained under the Mental Health Act in a specialist ED hospital which is in the middle of nowhere and has variable to crap 3G signal for my iPad. Gorgeous setting if I was allowed out to enjoy it! Yesterday they got permission to force feed me if necessary so not a happy bunny but agreeing taking the PEG feed and having some freedom is better than being pinned down by nurses and made to take it anyway. I am not fighting them on this one as they will win! I’m trying hard but the anorexia hates this. I spent my birthday in here on Tuesday and the afternoon getting a new PEG as mine blocked the week before irreparably and I was back to being NG fed which I kept removing. They are making me go to a BMI of 16 which again the anorexia hates but is preferable to the BMI of 20 they suggested on admission which made me freak and try to run away.
The hospital is nice though and the staff are the most amazingly supportive I’ve come across in any treatment facility.
So alas that is where I have gone…
Back when I can, weather permitting as wind makes my 3G vanish altogether
Tags: anorexia, detained, ED, force fed, hospital, NG tube, PEG tube, vanished
November 5, 2011 at 1:33 am |
I was just wondering yesterday how you were going! Though detained isn’t really what I was hoping for
I’m so sorry 
It’s good their nice though and OMG 16 is much preferable to 20. 20 would be like…. death.
Anyway, I hope you can keep updating sometimes and I really hope things can get a bit better for you.
November 5, 2011 at 1:55 am |
I am so, so sorry. All I can say, even though I don’t know you at all, is that there is so much to live for, and I wish you all the courage you need to get back to energy and health.
November 7, 2011 at 5:52 pm |
I really hope that this hospital helps you feel better, both emotionally and physically. *cuddles*